I’ve already had a few people ask me why I’m not at the Midsummer festival this year. To answer simply, I’m kinda over it and I’ve been trying to avoid situations that make me uncomfortable. I have noticed that clubbing and other big Gay events don’t really attract me any more because as I’m getting older ( and more grumpy ) I’m finding it harder to relate to the wider Gay community. I’m not impressed by Twink culture which just regurgitates what it see’s and I’m tired of the muscle boy culture which makes everyone else invisible. Right now my life is really taking place outside of the Gay community
I’m also a little bit shy lately and that hasn’t helped much at all. I don’t feel all that proud of myself and the way I’ve acted in my personal life over the past year and I guess that’s made me a bit shy of being in public. It’s a bit of a paradox that I’m living my life so openly online and yet when I get out on the scene I feel very shy. The blog and the internet are a shield.
I’m not hiding from the world by any means but I have simply found that more and more of my social activity is taking place outside of the scene and as my interests become more and more varied I’m finding that I don’t need the shelter of the community like I used too.
It just goes to show that there is life outside of the Gay community and maybe maturity is finally catching up with me, but until then I will continue to be irresponsible and trashy so here’s a pic of me in my Tightie Whities, members can see the full spread in the SEALED SECTION.