A big part of my recent depression was the feeling that I had accomplished so few of my goals and whilst this was not entirely true once you get in to a negative spiral it’s very hard to break it. In reality many of the things that I had set out to achieve this year have in fact been achieved but one of the problems with deep depression is that it is very hard to see the positive things that are happening in our lives.
My time on the Arion so far has helped me feel a sense of achievement again. It was one of my goals this year to travel and I am satisfied that I can now tick that box on my list, but when we are feeling over whelmed it’s easy to think that the large things we want to accomplish are impossible or beyond our reach. So we need to focus on the small things again.
Living on the Arion is so far removed from any other experience of my life that each day on the boat has brought with it a fresh sense of achievement. Working around the boat and learning the ropes like hoisting the sails and learning how to raise and lower the anchor are making me feel more and more confident every day. Confidence is an important weapon against my depression. As my confidence builds I feel like I can take on the things that in the past would have brought about panic attacks or that I would have avoided to begin with.
I came to the Arion looking for a chance to grow and it seems that I have made the right choice.