Never forget you matter.
As somebody who has struggled with depression at various times in my life I have learnt one important thing, never forget you matter.
It’s easy sometimes to feel like you don’t have a place in the world, like you don’t have value or you don’t belong. With all the pressure on LGBT people and all the negativity it takes a strong person to not be affected by any of it. The pressure to look a certain way, act a certain way, own the right labels, the pressure to perform, to be a success, the pressure of homophobia and ignorance and all the other weights we put on ourselves in modern life add up.
In the deepest parts of my depression there were times when I treated myself and my body without any kind of love. This kind of abuse almost verged on a kind of suicide. I felt like I was worth so little that I didn’t care what happened to me. When you think you don’t matter you are more likely to have risky sex, take drugs, not stand up for yourself, not take care of your health and not treat yourself with love. This is what happened to me.
The reasons why I felt like I didn’t matter were wide and varied. I felt unsuccessful and un-noticable and eventually the constant negativity I heaped on myself almost crushed me. I attached my sense of self worth the things that were all in the past and I forgot to look towards the future. I also attached my sense of self worth to things that were out of my control.
Everyday you should remember that you matter. Remind yourself of your successes and all the things that make you unique. No body can judge your journey, it is yours alone.
You is Kind,
You is Smart,
You is important.