Where did all the writing go? The blog has lost it’s soul.

The last eight months have been a bit of a wash when it’s come to my writing and I’ve been thinking about the reasons why. I’ve been reposting a lot of content and thats made it easy in some ways but in other way it’s become too much of a crotch and I have stopped writing my own posts all together. There is no doubt the blog is suffering. I’ve been too focussed on just keeping the thing running and on posts for the Members section that everything else has suffered.

It’s made a really noticeable difference to the decline in comments and interaction between me and my readers. The blog has lost something… it’s lost it’s soul.

The lack of new and original writing has is very much connected to my own struggle with what has been going on in my life over the last year and how I see myself in the world. How can I give advice when I see my own life as a mess? What right do I have to tell people about how awesome life is when I am struggling with my own problems. I feel like I’ve lost the moral authority to commentate on whats happening around me because of my own messy existence.

The identity crisis I have been suffering has very much played out on the blog and if people are left feeling confused about what is going on here it’s because my own life right now feels like chaos. Even the layout of the blog right now seems like too much, the chaos in my head is reflected in the chaos on the screen. Its a riot of colour, a headache with lots of eye candy and not much sustenance.

There are days when I sit down to write but it feels forced. I have draft upon draft sitting in my work tray that haven’t been touched in months. They are all about things that are important to me but which I haven’t completed because I feel a little bit like a fraud or because I’m not quite ready to be honest enough with myself about them to write authentically.

 

 

 

10 thoughts on “Where did all the writing go? The blog has lost it’s soul.

  • September 21, 2017 at 7:59 pm
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    Hi Shannon, I think its fair enough to say you have been busy with your life and so you should be because its that “YOUR LIFE” just because you decide to share some of it on this blog with your thoughts and opinions is from my perspective very much appreciated. There are time in all our lives that we take a different path than the one we originally planned and if we didn’t do that we would never learn good or bad decisions. There is one thing that no one can call you and that’s a “fraud” you are allowed to change your mind and opinion as much as you like. We don’t live our lives by the things that you say or do. We may take some of those opinions and see if they work and if they do all good if not the we need to change the path we are on.
    You can get over this bit of a speed bump in your life happenings at the moment and those that really care and respect you will be here to help in anyway we can. Pick yourself up, shake of the cobwebs and live life your way. You have earnt my respect not through what you have said or done but because you are you and have never stopped being that. Well done for that and onward and upwards from here babe. Peace and much love to you

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  • September 21, 2017 at 8:49 pm
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    hi. I think that those who’ve known you a while know there are good times & bad times. And we all have confidence you will get through the rough ones & come out the other side. And the writing will come back too. But dont feel like a fraud, your opinions are still valid. Take care 🙂

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  • September 22, 2017 at 12:33 pm
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    “…it’s become too much of a crotch and I have stopped writing…” Was this apparent misspelling a Freudian slip?

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  • September 23, 2017 at 2:52 am
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    I hope you’ll be able to sort through your identity crisis. I’ve always admired your honesty, and Ive enjoyed reading about your travels. I’ve noticed that I’ve been posting less on my blog too. Lots of things I’d have blogged about in earlier years now just get tweets, if that. Just keeping up with Twitter has become extremely time-consuming.

    Finding time to blog isn’t easy, but I want to try; and of course I’d love seeing posts from you. So if you can manage it, please post.

    Anyway, best wishes, and God bless you.

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  • September 24, 2017 at 2:23 am
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    You can post any time you want. Never think that you are anything more than what you are. Any advice you post comes from you view of the world and no one else’s. It doesn’t mean that it’s right or wrong it’s just you. Every voice has a right to be heard and if you wish to write or not write then that’s up to you.

    I have been following your blog for a long time. I started because you are hot. You were hot then and hot now, but I don’t check the blog just because your ass looks good in those shorts, I keep checking your blog because of you. The photographer, the blogger the person. Write when you feel like it, write about what you want to write about. But all in all be yourself.

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    • September 27, 2017 at 5:46 pm
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      Thanks Mark, I think it mostly because I’m tired and missing out on the things that I feel are really important to me. Only three weeks left here in the UK and then I’ll be back home again and having some time to recharge.

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  • September 25, 2017 at 4:15 am
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    Isn’t everyone’s life a mess? You don’t need to feel that you have it all together. You’re still awesome Shannon!

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    • September 27, 2017 at 5:45 pm
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      Ha mess is good, mostly I’m just a bit worn out and looking forward to some time off again so that I can focus on the things that are important to me.

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  • September 25, 2017 at 9:32 pm
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    I wanna be honest and say that I miss some of the Shannon I now follow for so many years. And it is right that the blog has transformed. We all become older and we change. And it is absolutely OK to do so. I am not a member of your blog and I am a little overwhelmed by the latest development of the content. We all know that you wanted to do porn for a very long time and it has now become real. But I often ask myself, where the responsible Shannon is in all this bareback porn now. You always had great advice on safe sex, gay sex and gay culture. Some of it is obviously reflected in your porn movies now. In the past though, you might have had a good advice on bareback sex and why you decided to go down that route and how you protect yourself. And this side of the blog is what I miss the most. Sorry, but that is what actually keeps my mind busy when I return to your blog.

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    • September 27, 2017 at 5:39 pm
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      Thanks Peter,

      Your feedback is really interesting and I have been thinking a lot about my own transformation on a lot of issues. I have some articles planned for the future detailing my own experiences with bareback sex, chemsex and a look at how and why I’ve been wanting to do porn for so long. My attitudes on quite a few things have changed and I think that it’s worth exploring why this has happened. As always though I think these things need to be thought through so I’m taking my time with the writing. Your insight here is spot on though.

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