Reader question. You don’t believe in God, is it because you are Gay?

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I guess the way to answer this question is that it’s not that I don’t believe in God, it’s that I think it’s extremely unlikely given the evidence. It has nothing to do with my sexuality.

In Primary School I remember going to bible classes and never really seeing it as anything more than fairy tales. I just never bought it, and believe me there were plenty of adults around me trying to make it stick. Bible stories for School plays, religious classes in Primary school and a Born Again Christian Principal pushing her agenda on a non denominational school all ended up with me still thinking “this is silly”.

But in the back of my mind there was still a question and when I was young I found myself “praying” to God. It wasn’t until I reached my teenage years that I began to understand what I called God wasn’t really a god of any religion. I just attached the label of “God” to what I had come to understand as the greater interconnectedness of myself and the Universe because at that time I didn’t have the vocabulary to describe it for myself.

I have given a lot of thought to religion and to what faith is. I took two units of Theology at University because I was interested in these kinds of questions but I have never felt like there is any reason to think that there is some kind of cosmic creator who cares or just as likely doesn’t care about what goes on in the world.

My sexuality hasn’t informed my belief in God but I’d be lying however if I didn’t admit that organised religion and the doctrines of many of it’s officers and temples have pushed me to be more questioning than perhaps I would otherwise have been.

I do think of myself as a spiritual person. For me sitting under the milky way and seeing the vastness of space, seeing Dolphins swimming in the waves under my feet or sitting on the beach watching the waves are spiritual experiences. I can appreciate a sunrise or be moved to tears by the beauty of La Sagrada Familia without having to attach some kind of supernatural mythology to it.